Been to the house again , have resisted for 2 weeks but was drawn there today . Was hoping to see you sat on your deckchair in the garden with a cup of tea but of course I didn't . I have made a conscious decision that I am not going around again , it is not our family home anymore I realise that now and one day I will walk in and a new family will be there , they will think I am a crazy woman with her dog 😳 . I hope they have as happy a life as we did in that house . Stella had a last chew on the grass , must be full of goodness she always loved it. Ruth's house is up for sale as well now so that will be 4 new people in the close . Love and miss you mum always in my thoughts xxx